[Must Read Story] MOTIVATION: Highly Inspiring Journey of Raushan Kumar, Rank 114 in CSE-2018 (126+ Marks in GS paper of Prelims 2018, InsightsIAS Student)
Highly Inspiring Journey of Raushan Kumar
Rank 114 in CSE-2018
IT’S ALL ABOUT NOT GIVING UP ON YOUR DREAMS
Greetings to all the Insights followers and anonymous hard working persons at Insights who play a commendable role in democratizing the entire process of UPSC Civil Services Examination preparation
Myself Raushan Kumar has secured AIR 114 in UPSC Civil Services Examination, 2018 and opted for IPS as my first preference.
A Brief timeline of events in my life
I was born on 07th July 1988 at Muzaffarpur (BIHAR). Completed my 10th (2003) and 12th (2006) from Muzaffarpur with 81.6% & 58.6% from CBSE Board (English Medium) respectively. Given my dismal performance in 12th Standard, I had literally decided to quit studies but persisted with support of parents. Since I had lost the self-confidence of clearing any competitive examination, with reference of my father’s colleague, approached more than 20 Engineering colleges for 3 months in Karnataka to get admission through management quota. With persistent efforts, I got admission in Bapuji Institute of Engineering & Technology in Mechanical Engineering stream in 2006. With guidance and much needed motivation of my roommate Gambhir Goyal, I was able to gradually increase my marks from 61.6% in first semester to 79% by 7th Semester and completing my Engineering with Distinction (2006-2010). I got placed to and joined JSW Steel Ltd. Vijayanagar Works, Toranagallu, Bellary (Karnataka) on 25th October 2010. I have been working for JSW Steel since then and due to be relived on 20th April 2019 after resignation post declaration of final result.
My father being a government teacher and mother being an ANM in health department of BIHAR and given the prevailing socio-political conditions in BIHAR I was always inclined to join government services, specifically Police services since the time I was able to make sense of the words like career, passion, aspiration or dreams. Post joining JSW Steel, I got involved with various ongoing projects and could afford little or no time to UPSC plan despite having it on back of my mind. The time just flew and I got married on 04th Feb 2013. Once aware of my UPSC aspirations, my wife (Kumari Richa) started questioning me almost on daily basis about my efforts towards preparation. I was almost clear in my mind that given the level of competition I can’t be successful in this examination with highly demanding full time steel plant job. I tried to seek support of family for quitting this job and preparing full time, but being aware of uncertainty of this examination and leaving a good job despite various responsibilities was way too big risk for them. Feeling helpless and broke, I started preparation with a plan to first secure some other government jobs (Banking, SSC and others) and then preparing full time to minimize the risk and tried to do a lot of thing without any planning. As it was to happen, failed in this plan miserably and decided to focus on Civil Services only after initial confusion and never appeared for any other examination
Feb 2013 – October 2015: Feeling of lost in wilderness
Given that I would have lost 2014 attempt even if not appeared due to age limit, I appeared for Prelims without any practice and very haphazard (referring guide books with covering basics from NCERT )preparation and was bound to fail. 2014 Prelims Score: GS – 61 CSAT – 104. Since result was expected, it was easy to move on.
Realizing my mistakes, I started reading NCERT and other Books but not in planned and organized way. I tried to study as much as possible but again without any question practice due to lack of confidence.
2015 Prelims: Failed (Score GS – 91, CSAT-102). I vividly remember the night of 23rd August, 2015 (2015 Prelims) crying on the Bengaluru station platform with my wife. I realized the cost of not doing question practice and decided to join a test series.
One day browsing the internet for online coaching, I landed at INSIGHTSONINDIA web page and after browsing it for weeks; I decided to join the test series in October 2015. Along with suggested study material with test schedule, I completed all tests on time and scored in range of 75-128. Feeling confident about Prelims, I cleared it
2016 Prelims: Cleared Score (GS – 123, CSAT – 102)
For 2014 and 2015 attempts, I opted for History and Geography respectively but was least prepared due to lots of confusion, self-doubt and lack of any strategy. After 2015 Prelims failure, I read interview of Mrs. Suma (IPS, Karnataka Cadre) and read NCERT Sociology to get a feel of the subject. I liked the subject and made up my mind to stick to this decision.
2016 MAINS – EPIC FAILURE
Though feeling energized due to clearing prelims, I was least prepared for MAINS. No answer writing (Despite reading all article links for SECURE answer writing initiative of INSIGHTS), barely covered the basics of Sociology, I did not even wanted to appear for MAINS, but just appeared for sake of evading my wife’s questions.
I almost broke down on the first day Essay paper itself and went blank inside examination hall (UVCE, Bengaluru) & could write only 5 pages and 3 pages for two essays respectively. Was expecting marks in 20s (real Score – 124). Completed less than half paper in all subjects including General Studies and optional.
Final Score – 528. Though failed miserably, it boosted my confidence as I had scored reasonably good, given the number of questions I attempted.
2017 Prelims (18th June 2017)
Same strategy continued: completing all InsightsIAS test on time, referring the study material as per test schedule and revised the test series by making short notes for tests. Test scores were in range of 90-140
Cleared prelims as expected (Score: GS – 117.34 CSAT – 98.33)
Having realized my limitations, I joined online sociology course of Vikash Ranjan Sir and tried to complete the mains syllabus, but again failed to do any writing practice for mains owing to lack of confidence and personal setbacks. Time between prelims and mains was of extreme emotions. My paternal cousin was killed by criminals in cold blooded manner on 21st June, 2017. The extreme pain of loss was somewhat attenuated by birth of my daughter on 04th October 2017. Somehow tried to get back on my task and prepared for mains. Owing to lack of answer writing practice, I could not complete any paper (completely left 2-3 questions in all papers) other than Essay paper. As it was to happen, missed mains cut off by narrow margin
Score – 783
Essay: 144 GS-1: 101 GS-2: 93 GS-3: 104 GS-IV: 91 Optional Papers 1: 126 Optional Papers 2: 124
Though failed, but score was proportionate to quality and quantity and I had no complaints for UPSC marking system. I could very clearly see my faults.
On the day of mains results, I lost my maternal cousin (23 year lady with 2 year old son) on 11th Jan 2018 in a freak fire accident. I could not come to senses and decided to visit my native (First time after my marriage in 2013). Coming back after visiting my parents & selfless love of my 4 months old daughter, I regained strength and decided to given this attempt my all.
2018 : Gave the all I had
Prelims + Mains Strategy
For this attempt I had very less time to prepare for prelims due to personal setbacks and work pressure, I completely relied on InsightsIAS Test Series and newspaper (Religiously following The Hindu since 2015, but not making any notes) with limited time to static portion. Completed all test on and made short notes for all tests (also referred to the links given in detailed explanation for questions) and revised them multiple times. Score in the test series were in range of 130-166. Though almighty was to test me to limits, my paternal uncle (whose son was killed on 21st June 2017) was killed on 13th May 2018. I am short of words to write what I went through. I was thinking of quitting this process itself but with wife’s support and daughter’s innocent love, I decided that this cannot be the end result of all my sacrifices. I literally forced myself to study and appeared for prelims.
It went well and was expecting score in the range of 120s and immediately started preparation for mains. For this attempt I Joined Praveen Kishore Sir’s online sociology classes with test series and insights online mains test series for GS and Essay. Completed all the tests in time bound manner and the feedback was encouraging.
In real mains exam, I ruined my Essay paper due to getting panic last 1 hour. But other papers went well and I attempted all questions and was confident about clearing mains. As expected I cleared it
As I have filled my DAF honestly, I prepared for everything I mentioned, held long discussion with parents about their jobs and about my work experience. Attended 4 mocks (Vajiram and Ravi – 2: Felt Good due to constructive feedback of panel members, KSG – 1: Panel was cordial and motivating- Khan Sir deserves a mention, Chanakya IAS – 1: Panel was engaging).
UPSC Interview on 27th March was one of best days of my life. Chairman: Retd. Air Marshal A S Bhonsle). Panel was way more cordial than expectation. 90% questions were from my experience in steel sector. Marks secured is close to my expectation
Final Result: On 05th April 2019 – Rank 114
I was busy in a shutdown at plant when results came. I was prepared for any outcome after reading the article on insights regarding it. This one moment made complete sense of all it took to be in that moment.
The final results made me realize the essence of the words of Nelson Mandela: “it always seems impossible until done “.
History: NCERT (6-12), TN History Text Book, Spectrum for Modern History
Economics: Mrunal Videos, Economic Survey, 11th NCERT, Insights Current Affairs and Vision IAS modules
Geography: Rajtnil Solanki Videos on Mrunal.Org, NCERT
Science and Technology: NCERT (6-10), Insights and Vision modules
Environment & Ecology: Roman Saini Unacademy Videos, Shankar IAS Booklet
Polity: NCERT 11-12 , M Laxmikant & Vision Material
Art & Culture: Ishani Pandya’s Video on Mrunal.Org, Nitin Singhania Book & NCERT
Current Affairs: Followed THE HINDU religiously (But no notes), Insights & Vision monthly Booklets
Test Series; INSIGHTS all tests with note making & multiple revision
Will share my checked answer sheets from Insights mains test series
- More the constraints you have, more will be desire to achieve and will make your journey fulfilling, if it really matters you
- Every day you will feel like quitting, but keep going
- Entire process is bound to make you a better version of yourself
- Compete with yourself
- Have a inner circle of trusted ones, who really know and trust you
- Develop thick skin: Don’t take criticism to heart or praise to head – I learnt it hard way during my >8 years of work experience. It is a much needed trait for this preparation process as well as during service
- It’s futile to complain about examination process, however genuine it may appear to you
- We have enough reasons to trust the sanctity of UPSC selection process
- Try your best to align your values with respect to constitutional ideas – it will make you a better version of yourself
- One day, all your struggles will make sense to you
- Nothing , absolutely nothing can hold you back from realizing your dreams
- Accept the uncertainty being part of life as well as this examination process as reality
Will continue to share my experiences
Again feeling short of words to thank entire Insights team for their efforts and support
Raushan Kumar (firstname.lastname@example.org)